My English teacher is failing me badly. Everything I hand in he’s been rejecting. He said to me, “robyn. I already put you in English communications 11 for your grade 12 year, because you’re marks are not high enough this semester. You Need to go deeper into thought” ive been trying my hardest and putting my all in every piece of my work. I’m an average high mark (80%’s) student. My overall mark right now is a 24%. I told him if he wants deeper thoughts from me, here’s one:
Why don’t you go deeper in your woman’s ass! Jerk!
I’m lucky he didn’t hear me. The class went loud because they knew I was about to flip out.
The past week at school, we’ve been talking about bullying, how it causes depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, self harm and more. So i’ve decided to tell my story.
I’m robyn, I’m 17 years old. I have a great family. Love them to pieces. I dance. Ive been dancing for 11 years almost. Sometimes I feel like I’m the luckiest person ever to have such wonderful people in my life. Other times I feel like I’m a nobody and just another rock on the side of the road. Everything in my life from other peoples perspective may seem amazing. It might be. But then theres school. Bullys. Teachers. Drama. Hate. And more. I have unfortunately had experienced cyberbullying.
I logged onto facebook after getting home from a guy friends house, to read status about me being, a slut. A bitch. A whore. Skank. Someone told me to get hit by a bus and that karma was going to come after me. I cut. Had suicidal thoughts. Then cried all night and all day at school the very next day. I had talked to a school therapist about it. She calmed me down. Excused me from classes. I didn’t want to live. I thought about running out in front of a bus. I didn’t.
I cried more. I thought about incidents that happened years before. Same thing happened. Text messages from unknown numbers telling me to die in hell with a slow and painful death. I took pills. Landed in the hospital. Cut.
Thankfully I have new best friends who I can talk to anytime. A supportive family. A great tutor for school.
If you’re being bullied tell someone right away. Stand up against bullying. Make a difference. You are not alone!!!!